Fear is faith in something else. Feel free to reread that last sentence as when I first saw it, it convicted me. One of the great female bloggers of the day, Jordan Lee posted this on her Instagram feed a few days ago. It really took me off guard as I have heard countless sermons about fear and worry and I honestly can’t tell you very much about any of them. I do remember that the phrase “do not fear” is in the Bible 365 times, so it’s an everyday reminder not to fear, but I don’t know any of those verses by heart.
However, when I thought about it more in depth I realized that this is what fear truly is. I started writing out things I would randomly fear/worry about during the past few days and later that night I would go over the ones for the day and try to see what is at the heart of the issue. What is it that I am really afraid of? Most of the time, it wasn’t even a reasonable fear when I realized that The Lord cares for me deeply as a daughter. A few of the fears I wrote down (as there was a lot more) included:
- I’m going to fail my finance exam.
- I don’t have an internship for the summer yet.
When I went through these things I realized a common trend, it’s not that they are the most important things in my life but it’s where I have placed my pride and value before. I was a straight A student in high school, so doing poorly on an exam doesn’t fit in with that persona. I have been known to schedule things way in advance, so I don’t have to worry about them a few days before, but here I am, a few months before summer without an internship.
Looking back over those things and what I wrote about them made me laugh a little bit. God does want you to “work at whatever you do with all your heart as though you were working for The Lord and not people” Colossians 3:23. But that doesn’t mean He won’t love you as much if you get a “C” or “D” on an exam. You aren’t going to ruin His plan. He already knows the outcome of what you are doing. Let me be clear though, that does NOT mean that you don’t try. Look back at Colossians 3:23.
The fact I was overwhelmed and worried about what would happen shows where and what I was putting my faith in. I was putting my faith in grades and the future, of which anything can happen and change. Isn’t that a HORRIBLE way to live? Basing your feelings off something that you can’t even control. I can’t control the future and assume that worrying will change anything is a deep black hole that will consume you and me.
I challenge you, this week, write down the things that overwhelm you, worry you, and cause you to fear. Then, at night, before going to bed, look at all those things you wrote down and write down a verse or two that reminds you of where to focus and where to put your faith. (HINT: IT’S JESUS!)